it just happened...
after confused thingy, desperate with the "old thing", on the way to my healing thingy...something come even am not really sure coz' lotz of a - z thingy factor & i thought it will really hard to let go the old thing *YESH...i really did*.
it came really fast in my new chapter of life after the "old thing", not realized at first...but after all this things happened & the attentions slowly fade away make me feeling lost...
Honestly...
am feeling comfy...but still lotz of thingy in my head *this & that & not really sure*, but i want those attentions back ! *sounds really selfish..huh !*
it's like GOD says: "Look child I still ♥ you, still blessed u, u still live your life after the "old thing" happened."
hahaha...maybe GOD give me all this "blinking moment" to make me realized that my life still beautiful & wonderful, and one thing..that HE still give me a warm Heart :)
Thanx FATHER for this experience...will keeping my "precious thing" in safety place, till' YOU open it & giving it to me :) Thanx for this teary smile...Thanx for created me strong outside :) *inside am fragile...ALERT ! Lolz*
Rite now 3:00 AM in the morning & i still can't sleep...after a few hours ago texted *feels like stranger :(* hhmm...later i think should make a distance to make me strong & back to my "safety place" *maybe it really hard coz i'm SELFISH !* maybe this is one of my healing moment after hard to let go the "old thing", maybe this is the TESTING that GOD give me *arrgghhh....really tiring to passing all this moment again*, my mind not really into it & i already blocked it, but honestly why...tears drop from my eyes *after the strange thingy*, but am not really hurt...confusing >__<
still dunno what i feel... maybe i must get over it & passing this testing before am getting deeply into it *SURELY*, still waiting the trully "gift" from GOD :)
wish me luck... *11:11* ;)
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after confused thingy, desperate with the "old thing", on the way to my healing thingy...something come even am not really sure coz' lotz of a - z thingy factor & i thought it will really hard to let go the old thing *YESH...i really did*.
it came really fast in my new chapter of life after the "old thing", not realized at first...but after all this things happened & the attentions slowly fade away make me feeling lost...
Honestly...
am feeling comfy...but still lotz of thingy in my head *this & that & not really sure*, but i want those attentions back ! *sounds really selfish..huh !*
it's like GOD says: "Look child I still ♥ you, still blessed u, u still live your life after the "old thing" happened."
hahaha...maybe GOD give me all this "blinking moment" to make me realized that my life still beautiful & wonderful, and one thing..that HE still give me a warm Heart :)
Thanx FATHER for this experience...will keeping my "precious thing" in safety place, till' YOU open it & giving it to me :) Thanx for this teary smile...Thanx for created me strong outside :) *inside am fragile...ALERT ! Lolz*
Rite now 3:00 AM in the morning & i still can't sleep...after a few hours ago texted *feels like stranger :(* hhmm...later i think should make a distance to make me strong & back to my "safety place" *maybe it really hard coz i'm SELFISH !* maybe this is one of my healing moment after hard to let go the "old thing", maybe this is the TESTING that GOD give me *arrgghhh....really tiring to passing all this moment again*, my mind not really into it & i already blocked it, but honestly why...tears drop from my eyes *after the strange thingy*, but am not really hurt...confusing >__<
still dunno what i feel... maybe i must get over it & passing this testing before am getting deeply into it *SURELY*, still waiting the trully "gift" from GOD :)
wish me luck... *11:11* ;)
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