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Monday, December 15, 2008

Fairytale...

Wat is FAIRYTALE...

Sumtimez i felt dat i LIVE in FAIRYTALE
Everythin seems really wonderful
Seems beautiful for me
Everythin's under ma control
Everythin's full of happiness
Maybe i'm lil' bit naive
Thought...dat Everythin will be okay
 
Thought...dat Everythin's NOT OVER
Thought...dat Everythin will STAY at their place 
Thought...there's no ENDIN, but Happily Ever After

EVERYTHIN's Random inside Ma FAIRYTALE
EVERYTHIN's Beautiful
EVERYTHIN Sounds & Seems WONDERFUL

Maybe i should open ma eyes RITE NOW
Maybe ma mind's rite
I MUST wake up from dis FAIRYTALE
FAIRYTALE is NOT EXIST
Maybe...i should push maself really hard
and said to Maself dat "THERE's NO FAIRYTALE"

FAIRYTALE's a BULLSHIT
FAIRYTALE's NOT EXIST
FAIRYTALE's juz a DREAM inside REALITY

Fiuhh...Wat a FAIRYTALE
MAYBE...Rite Now i dun believe anymore dat FAIRYTALE's EXIST

FAIRYTALE inside REALITY...
Juz...FAIRYTALE...
ONLY FAIRYTALE from Many FAIRYTALEZ

FAIRYTALE inside Ma MIND but NOT Ma HEART...Anymore

FAIRYTALE is a FAIRYTALE...
Maybe...NO MORE FAIRYTALE...

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Random...

Dunno wat to say...
Dunno wat to do...
STILL Blurin...
Juz wan to write sumthin...
Sumthin dat i can't TELL...


uhhmm...i juz...dunno
I'm Blank...
STILL waitin for next chapter...
STILL waitin for next story...
STILL waitin for next song...
STILL waitin for next poem...
STILL waitin for next inspiration...
STILL waitin for next surprise...
STILL waitin for next memory...


STILL Waitin...
BLURIN...

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Inspired Speech

i wan 2share dis speech, i really inspired by dis speech, hope u'll be inspired 2, it really nice ^^

Standford University:

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

(note: I copy paste from dis website: http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html)


P.S: No matter wat happen 2us, juz BELIEVE dat EVERYTHIN HAPPENS for a REASON.

No matter wat we do, do it wif PASSION, DEDICATION, RESPECT, INTEGRITY & D most important thing...do it wif our HEART.

i juz realize dat we've met & noe each other juz becoz a/many REASON & i really BELIEVE all dat "REASON" is 2help us grow, make us BETTER & STRONGER than before.
xoo...ma Angelz c'mon...we've got to find what what we love in life & let our HEART find it. =)

To ALL Ma Angelz I Wan 2Say:
THANX...coz ya'll become ma "REASON" to live,
THANX 4 UR "EXISTENCE" in ma life, I LEARN Lotzzzz from EACH of U,
Last but not least THANX...for OLWEIZ INSPIRED me, U're D BEZT ^^

"I LOVE LIFE, LIFE LOVE ME, I LOVE MASELF, I LOVE U ma ANGELZ & Remember...OLWEIZ BELIEVE & FOLLOW OUR HEART ^^"

wif LOVE
Ma 4R Quote: "REJOICE our life, RESPONSIBLE wif everythin we've said & done, RESPECT others & REGRET nothin." =)

WHEREVER U Are & WHATEVER U Do...I Hope Ur Life's full of LOVE, HAPPINESS, BLESSING & NO REGRET.
GBU ^^





If you TELL me, I will LISTEN.
If you SHOW me, I will SEE.
If you let me EXPERIENCE, I will LEARN.
~ Lao Tzu ~

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Drunken Chicken Grilled

OMG...hari ini dah mulai kul lagi :(
kuliah siang itu bener2 bwat aku ngantuk & males puoolll, btw...bwat nambah semangat akir-e aku ma adekku eksperimen masakan dan setelah binung2 cari nama akire muncul nama "Drunken Chicken Grilled" =D
Masakan-e ini bener2 memabukkan, setelah makan bener2 isa "nge-fly" dan ngantuk, bener2 ayam memabukkan wkakaka

contain wif: cinnamon, clove, caraway ^_^

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Weekend at Home

Today...weekend at Home, mo bwat kolo-ku *feel really bored* sigh...
binungggg...tiba2 isa semangat bwat, terus nti tiba2 malezzz *arghhhhh*
sekarang ini bener-e mo bwat kolo-ku, tapi gak tau kenapa tiba2 pengen wae nulis blog, wis kebosanan mendalam ikiiii
btw...aku lagi 'home alone' pula, pa-ma ku keluar kota, adekku ya lagi pegi, mo bwat kolo-ku ide mo nulis apa ya gak muncul2...
wisss aku tak nunggu ilham wae, sapa tau tiba2 muncul



Played:
Down by 林俊杰 (Lin Jun Jie)

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Hi Peeps...

weww...dahh lama nehh gak nulis blog, mayan kangen juga...
btw...satu tahun belakangan ini banyak kejadian yg buat aku merasa aku tuh diberkati banget & lotz of coincident in ma life ^_^, hal-hal yang gak pernah aku harap dan dapetin ternyata bisa aku dapetin, banyak hal yang tak terduga yg muncul dihadapanku *really happy bot dat* , i feel blessed ^_^.

Banyak kejadian yg mayan sulit yg aku lewati, but fortunately...i can passed all dat situation

akhir-akhir ini aku merasa happy, depressed and enthusiasm at d same time, gara-gara kolokium-ku.
liburan ini mo bwat kolo-ku tapiiiii...males-ku kadang kumatt *arghhhhh...pusink aku*, terus...kadang binung harus mulai darimana bwat-e *biasaaa..aku ini tipikal orang yg sulit memulai sesuatu, lebih gampang klo disuruh untuk mengakhiri *
yahhh....sementara ini aku tak menikmati kebingungan + stress menghadapi kolo-ku hehehe *arghhhh...pusinkkk*
akirnyaaaaa....mayan lega juga mari nulis blog *hobi nulis-ku tersalurkan*

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Existence...

Eksistensi (Existence)...kata yang mudah diucapkan, namun kadang artinya hanyalah suatu eksistensi yang kosong dan tidak bermakna. Apa eksistensi itu sesungguhnya....
Apakah perlu eksistensi itu dalam hidup ?? eksistensi seperti apa yang sebenarnya kita harapkan sebagai “manusia”, hanya exist atau “exist” tidak hanya untuk diri sendiri tapi bagi orang lain dan kehidupan kita ??
Setiap manusia pada dasarnya sama butuh eksistensi.
Setiap manusia ingin diakui ke-exist-annya...entah dalam hidup orang lain, di suatu organisasi, di suatu lingkungan bahkan di dunia.
Tapi percuma saja jika manusia itu exist tanpa memberikan makna dan inspirasi bagi dunianya, karena manusia itu tidak akan ada bedanya dengan pemanis atau hiasan untuk pelengkap kehidupan serta berbagai macam formalitas yang ada dalam dunia ini.
Manusia hanya akan dianggap sebagian kecil dari semua hiruk pikuk, lalu lalang dan populasi dalam dunia ini.
Dengan mengetahui apa yang sebenarnya kita inginkan dan melakukan yang ingin kita lakukan sepenuh hati serta membuat orang lain bahagia mungkin akan membuat hidup kita lebih “manusiawi”  serta mempunyai arti dan menginspirasi orang lain...
mungkin itulah arti dari beberapa keeksistensian kita di dunia ini.
Apa sebenarnya eksistensi itu??
Bagiku eksistensi itu adalah...
ketika aku bertemu kemudian bertukar senyum dan salam dengan orang lain,
ketika aku mendengarkan seseorang yang memang butuh “didengarkan”,
ketika aku bisa membuat orang lain tersenyum dan tertawa (dengan kebodohanku),
ketika bebas mengutarakan apa yang ada di pikiranku,
ketika aku berbuat sesuatu hal kecil bagi orang lain,
ketika pikiran dan pendapatku dihargai orang lain,
ketika berkreasi seperti yang aku inginkan tanpa ada batasan-batasan,
ketika aku bisa menghargai orang lain dan pendapat mereka,
ketika aku tersakiti dan sadar aku bisa merasakan sakit itu karena aku “hidup”,
ketika aku terjatuh dan merasa harus bangkit lagi,
ketika Tuhan menegur aku maupun mengabulkan doa-doaku,
ketika aku mengucapkan Terima Kasih dan sebaliknya orang lain terhadap aku,
ketika aku terinspirasi oleh orang lain dan menjadikannya motivasi dalam kehidupanku,
ketika aku bisa memberikan kekuatan bagi orang lain,
ketika kebodohan atau kesalahanku memotivasi dan menguatkan orang lain,
ketika aku memberi semangat pada diriku untuk maju terus ke depan & tidak takut akan kegagalan,
ketika aku merasakan dan memahami “perasaan” yang dialami orang lain,
ketika aku mempunyai pengharapan akan sesuatu,
ketika aku mengungkapkan perasaanku pada orang lain tanpa ada penyesalan, karena memang itu yang aku rasakan,
ketika aku menjalani hidupku tanpa penyesalan, walaupun kadang hal buruk dan rasa sakit itu ada,
ketika aku merasa lemah maupun takut,
ketika aku bangun pagi hari dan sadar mataku dapat terbuka serta bisa merasakan detak jantungku,
ketika aku mempunyai pegangan dan kekuatan dalam hidup,
ketika keluarga maupun teman-temanku (Ma Angelz) ada "di sampingku" saat aku mengalami kedukaan dan kegagalan,
serta berbagai macam keeksistensian yang pernah dan akan aku rasakan dalam hidup.
Tapi dari semua “rasa” itu...yang membuat aku sadar sesungguhnya apa arti “eksistensi “ itu ketika aku merasa di ambang kematian, semuanya benar-benar aku “rasakan”  dan muncul tepat di hadapanku. Pada saat aku merasa di ambang kematian, aku masih belum rela melepaskan keeksistensian-ku dalam kehidupan. Aku masih ingin melanjutkan keeksistensian-ku dalam hidup, karena aku merasa belum cukup memanfaatkan keeksistensianku untuk bisa berguna dan dapat membahagiakan orang lain, namun pada akirnya nanti aku juga harus berhenti, hingga kemudian bisa berkata dengan lega dan puas “CUKUP SUDAH...sudah saatnya bagiku untuk mengakhiri keeksistensian-ku dalam dunia dan kembali pada dunia yang sudah dijanjikan padaku, biarlah keeksistensian-ku hidup dan tinggal di dalam orang-orang yang menyayangi maupun yang tidak menyukaiku, karena aku sudah melakukan semua yang ingin aku lakukan serta bertanggung jawab atas semua hal itu dan aku tidak pernah menyesali hal baik, buruk yang terjadi dan setiap orang (semuanya) yang pernah "kutemui dan kukenal" dalam hidupku”
Sehingga pada akirnya aku bisa tersenyum dan bahagia, karena sudah menjalankan tugas keesksistensian-ku dan merasakan keeksistensian orang lain dalam hidupku (baik maupun buruk), sehingga membuat aku merasa tidak menyesal telah dilahirkan.
PS: Buat keeksistensian kita berguna tidak hanya untuk diri sendiri,   tapi juga untuk orang lain. Not only EXIST but Co-EXIST too. ^^
I Luph U All Ma Angelz, THANX for “EVERYTHIN” all of U gave to me, THANX for always be there for me and THANX for being Ma LIFE’S PUZZLE *coz each of u have and keep a pieces of story bout me, bout ma life and all ur opinion bout me* ^_^
I DO REALLY LUPH ALL OF YOU, GBU olweiz. ^^

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

My Thoughts

 You can't judge me coz' you just a human being, only GOD can judge me.
If you see me, I'm only a human being, a body with mind and feelin, but inside i'm only a pieces of soul from billions in dis world who's sent from heaven and still searchin wat the meaning of true life.
I'm a corpse with soul inside, and it makes me think dat life not only a physical or material things, but what we feel inside is the most important thing, and it makes my life really wonderful. I'm HAPPY.
I'm a soul, wrapped with corpse, covered with behave, but inside and what i feel is trully me.
GOD create me with many reasons and purpose, with mind and feelin, sadness and happiness, and it makes me feel that i'm special and usefull in GOD's way.
pain is feel really hurt, but if we can pass that feelin it make us really stronger and can rule our world.
pain is about learn sickness, forgive ourself, and thanks to the people who make ourself hurt because give us this experience and make us stronger.
life give many things to learn, it makes me stronger and makes me feel dat i'm special.
sumtimes i need a space for maself, need time to cry, need time to meditate, need time to think, for many reason i juz need it.
I Had my Own World and it's full of happiness inside, So What about yours?